I have not been following Gods plans for my life for a very longtime now? I just recently wokeup out of my Addiction lifestyle I created for myself. I don't know why I didn't STOP sooner? But sometimes you just don't see how bad things are until they hit you right in the face. I finally stopped before I got to jail or ruined the lives of my sons, because of my dumb choices in life. I have 1 daughter from a previous marriage, and 2 sons also. But, then I married my longtime boyfriend of 20+yrs about 6 yrs ago. He had raised all my kids as his own. WHEN he worked and wasn't drinking he was a good father & husband. But, that didn't last very long? he was in & out of jail, so maybe that's why we stayed together so long? but anyway's we had 2 children and stayed together for 23yrs or more until 2005 when he got deported because of drug issues. I finally said enough, I started my life over without him in it. I wasn't going to chase him all the way to MEXICO? I decided I can start a good life without him. NO more ADDICTION, cause we both used drugs & alcohol most of our time together. He got clean I didn't, I got clean & sober he didn't through our whole 23yr relationship. SO I finally 5yrs ago asked God for help. I don't know why I didn't do this longago. But, I watched JOYCE MEYER on Tv. She said something that clicked in my head. NOW I am so happy to have God love in my life. I am a changed person from all my life. I attend Victory Outreach Portland,Oregon chapter. I have cleaned my life up, went to therapy for the past 2 yrs. (still attending) Meetings, Couseling, alot of work everyday to stay clean & sober for me and my sons. I won't go backwards, with God's help I won't make those mistakes again. I will share more in the future. But for now I am waiting for my ride to CHURCH to thank God for saving my life and my future is Great and Inspiring. AMEN for that!
